I had 2 tests tomorrow and i still facing the laptop and typing this post..? For god shake hufft. Well, i have
but this all doesn't mean i'm lazy. I just....tired? my brain is...need a rest for a while, or maybe for a long time because my brain is too tired to thinking about many problems.
as i grow older, problem slowly comes, school, society, friends, lovelife *hmhm*
this makes me want to back to my childhood.
when i was child, i never thought that this world is going to be hard for me. I thought no one could hurt me. i thought i was invincible. i thought i was a beautiful one. i thought i was friends with whoever said hi to me. Everyone was nice. Clothes and fashion didn't matter. i'd go to sleep tear free. I was never had a feeling that i want to runaway. I WAS always smiling. I was never had a feeling that i want to kill my own self.
And now, that's all seems like a bullshit. Life is Hard. The world is horrible. mean, a judgmental place. I still don't understand why i wasn't this scared of all the dangers that are out in the world at that age. People forced me to be, telling us stories about stuff that happens in this world. Makes me scared.
I wish i was still happy, nice, smiley, like a funny little kid i used to be.
but now, I really miss playing around without worrying about problem, i miss falling in love without getting hurt at the end, i miss not caring what people say, and that's all means : I miss the old me
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